YO PEEPS.
i just came back from nationals.
i went there to support!
HAHA.
somehow i manage to go.
then i saw him* swim!
so fast!!
AHAHAHA.
i tried to take pics for 4 shuai guys.
totally cannot make it.
SORRY GUYS.
u noe how diff it is.
hahas.
nvmm.
i see him* everyday.
someday i'll eventually take a pic.
HAHA.

okay.
to the bad part.
mrs bowness scolded me till i cried ytd.
noe why?
coz i said i was tired during training.
EVERYONE WAS TIRED OKAY.
EVERYONE WAS WHINING AND BARGAINING AND COMPLAINING.
WHY CAN'T I JUST SAY "IM TIRED?"

she says she expects me to:
-be tougher than everyone else.
-don't say "im tired" during training.
-train twice as hard as everyone else.

im the only one in the sch team that trains EVRYDAY.
fine.
not counting sundays.
i turn up for all sch training sessions.
i train twice as hard.
i overtake my seniors by 100m every set last thurs.
i ran 2km ytd morning in 10.11mins.
then ran for an hour under the damn hot sun.

i had a stitch.
then she told me.
"thats not an excuse."
im like.
wtF.

i ran till i almost fainted.
coz sun was so hot.
my legs ached from morning's 2km.
im FLAT FOOTED SUMMORE.
i can't run so much.
if not my leg'll hurt badly.
i felt like PUKING.
coz i felt so damn uncomfortable.

and she SCOLDS ME.
she just loves to pick on me.
everyone was like.
"u swim so fast ytd, run so fast today. she just needs to FIND something to scold you."
she picks on me everyday.
after every training she'll come and talk to me.
"u're getting influrence by daphne and carrie.
u start whining and complaining like them.
i expect u to be tougher than everyone else.
and not complain.
u ran the fastest today i could see."
THEN WHY IS SHE STILL LECTURING ME.
"am i pushing u too hard?"
she asked me that 3 times before i shook my head.
tho i almost said.
"YES.OBVIOUSLY."
"do you want to get the scholarship?"
she asks me that 3 times again.
then i nodded my head.
tho i REALLY ALMOST said.
"NO."
RIGHT IN HER FACE.

but i was crying.
so i didnt wanna talk to her.

just coz she wants me to get the scholarship.
if getting it means being picked on her every single day.
i'd rather not get it.
I DONT WANT IT ANYMORE.
my mum says i can tell her i dont want it anymore.
if she picks on me
ONE MORE TIME.
YOU WATCH OUT MAN!

she expects me rachel daphne and carrie.
to do the 800m swim 5km run.
or the 400m swim 2.5km run and the end of ur 10km marathon.

ITS LIKE SO TOUGH.
she's FORCING us.

IM HAVING A B'DAE PARTY ON THAT DAY.
AND NOW IM CANCELLING IT.
AND CHANGING IT TO THE 22nd APRIL.
INSTEAD OF THE 29th APRIL.
WTF.
daphne and carrie's gna tell her.
that everyone got invited to my b'dae party.
HAHA.
but its like.
100% she wont allow us to miss the comp.
ah wells.

she's totally ruining my life.